Life feels like a fast moving train. We are on that train and looking out the window – the scenery is flying by. Most often we just sit down for the ride and find ourselves on auto-pilot – not realizing how fast life is moving. It is usually a wake-up call that forces us off the fast moving train and we have to wake up to the life we are in. The here and now.
My daughter is graduating from high school this May. I truly can’t believe how fast it went. I’m walking this fine line between grieving and celebrating. Grieving the speed of it all, the change this will bring to our family, and the thoughts that plague me: did I say enough, prepare her enough, teach her enough? And yet I celebrate how bright and exciting her future is.
I know I can’t fight time, for I will never win. Time will move on whether I like it or not. Is there a way to slow time? Ann Voskamp says,
“Time is a relentless river. It rages on, a respecter of no one. And this, this is the only way to slow time:
When I fully enter time’s swift current, enter into the current moment with the weight of all my attention, I slow the torrent with the weight of me all here. When I’m looking for the glimpse of glory, I slow and enter. And time slows.”
Yes! Time slows when I’m present to the moment right before me. When I’m fully there. I’m going to try and stop fighting time – it takes so much energy and feels so defeating. Instead I’m going to hug her more often, tell her I love her and am proud of her, sacrifice my own time to be available to her, and pray for her as often as I remember. It’s time to savor the time we have. I have to keep reminding myself to slow down and enter into the current moment. I will never have these days again. Easier said than done.
What can you be more present to in these moments of time? Because it goes so fast.
